Nerf Gun War Time!

On Saturday, July 27th, my friends who are like a second family to me threw a surprise in the middle of Kelly's 50th birthday party (Thank you Kelly for little us take over a bit). But wait, I should go back to the young days to explain why I wanted to do this.
When my friends Jeremy, Brad and I were younger we would go in the crawl space under Jeremy's parents house and have Nerf gun wars. It was always a blast and it created memories and laughter. I put it on my bucket list wanting to do it again with my family friends. Sadly Jeremy and Brad were not able to join this war, but I thought of them while it happened.
Sheryl announced at the birthday party that it was not all about Kelly and that we were going to do something for me. I knew something was up since she told me to be ready and I saw people walking about with bags...I had no idea what I was getting into. When she announced that since we are all together today we are going to have a Nerf gun war, Shannon next to my pulls out my gun! I was so excited! I don't think I could stop smiling!
All of the kids, plus some adults got into it big time! I had helpers finding my ammo and bring it too me and placing them in my gun so I could keep at it. It was a blast!! Thank you so much everyone!

Sheryl, you are the best! Love you!

Children didn't want to stop, too much fun!

"Go Get Audrey!" I believe he was telling his kids :)

Under attack by Tiffany!!!

I'm down I'm down! You got me Tiff!! :)

Ammo Up!

Jordan getting into like he was playing Call of Duty haha

The gang, most anyways!

Discourage

This week I lost more vision in my right eye so it has put me in the dump a little. I think what scares me the most is not knowing when that day will be that I won't have any vision. Every time I lose a little more I start all over with the denial and frustration. With trying to come to terms with my disability causes more mix emotions of anger, anxiety, fear and others that I can't stop thinking about the negative stuff and focus on the positive. With all these emotions it makes it hard to think that I have the strength to handle it. Everyone says I am strong and maybe on the outside looking in I do, but in the inside I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. I know that I need to use my cane and not worry about what others think when they see me. But it is so awkward using it and just reminds me that my syndrome is real. I don't want to face it, too big of a battle and I feel that I'm doing it on my own since I don't have anyone to relate to and no one can understand what its like for me. I know that I have the support of family and friends all around me but they can only do so much. I hope one day I will be able to accept it, I not let it control my life but I control it.

Slacking

I have been very bad with keeping up on this blog, but I have a good reason!! Ever since I hurt my back a year ago it has been hard to sit at my computer especially after a day at work. I am working on getting my pictures from my China trip together to create a blog on that. More to come soon!! I promise!

Drove a Truck!

So today I had a nice surprise! My best friend, Justin, and I were driving to his mother's house for BBQ and he randomly ask, "If I let you drive my truck will you be able to keep it out of the ditch?" I didn't think he was serious! I have joked with him many times before if I could and he would just laugh and say "hell no". Sure enough we got to the road and he stopped. It was not a long road but it was worth it! I even went through a gate and parked it without hitting anything. Yes, I was nervous! This truck is not a small Toyota style! The truck has over 500 horse power and 1000 ft lbs of torque. Pretty much the truck is sexy, haha! It gave me the satisfaction to say that was an accomplishment off my checklist! Thank you Justin!!