Three weeks ago I left the ATC program early. I felt that I was ready and learned all I needed. I also needed a break from focusing and facing my disabilities head on every day. The only class that I didn't finish was Braille, which I continue to learn on my own and have Hardy Boys and Boxcar Children to practice with for fun. My migraines have worsen and I need to focus on my health now and get things under control.
I learned a lot, not only how to do things non visually, but gained confidence and how things will be hard when the time comes. But it will be possible. It won't be easy, nor perfect. I learned that we are all on different paths because we all have a variety of blindness or vision impairment. That we are coping differently. Not only do we have to continue to face obstacles in life, but we are going to have to educate those around us. We have to show them that the assumptions that have been made about people that use white canes doesn't mean they have no vision. We have to teach people to be
patient with us, when you see us struggling to do something that is simple to you, don't take over and do it for us. We will tell you when we need help. We may be slower but we
can do it. Don't grab our canes and pull us around, we are not dogs. The cane is
our eyes, it helps us and gives us a sense of security. We will get to where we are going, we just have to plan extra time, so bare with us. When you point something out to me you can't say, "It is over there" because I can't see where you are pointing. You take my hand and point it in the direction and I will follow with my eyes or tell me it is to the left or five steps in front of me. I don't want pity, I want love and support. I know that it is hard for friends and family to understand what is like to be me, I'm still learning. I don't know what I need help with until I face it, but know I will ask for help if I need it. I may be vision impaired but I am still me, I am still independent and being vision impaired will always be a struggle for me. But I'm trying, so bare with me.
The Gang Gang